My Best Friend

My Best Friend 

Many days I've wanted to die

 Kiss my Ass and say goodbye 

Make this world a little bigger 

Bend my head and pull the trigger 

The dark so deep swallowing me 

Nothing helping me to be free 

But then I think of those I know 

And what to them I would show 

It is my spite that keeps me here 

They knowing I will always be near 

Within me there is strength untold 

All I need do's grab hold

 And in my deepest darkest hour 

My self-hating thoughts turn sour

 I grab onto my closest friend 

Who is myself in the end 

For time is all we have in life 

Even with the abundant strife 

To know ones self to know it true 

Is the only thing that will get us through 

And so to all I say again 

Love the person you are within

©Dark

Nothing More

Nothing More

My head is pounding, throbbing, splitting,

ripping apart from within.

Piercing thrusts that are

beyond the endurance of human fortitude

Then the fires begin.

They sear my right eye from front to back.

It blinds every facet of my existence.

The touch of my own hand feeds the flame,

and when the flame dies down

the charred skin crawls slowly back into place.

The creeping of it, so much like the tickle of lice on a hot day ,

cause my hands to reach again to my head,

I can not think or comprehend other’s speech.

My ability to function is impaired to nihility,

 except for the pain.

Pain is all there is,

and all that exists is pain.

Nothing More

©Dark

Walls And Walls

Walls And Walls

Thinking thoughts so dark so real

Would you find them to your appeal

If I told you my darkest dream

Detailed out I think you'd scream

If I shared but half my pain

It would drive you quite insane

My memories are swept aside

But in my dreams I can not hide

I am again the child that I once was

Screaming in my head with just cause

The hate, pain, and fear come back to me

Did I not love you I'd let you see

It is the shame of many years

And even love can't dry the tears

Would you have me open wounds

Let them bleed beneath that moon

You are not near to hold my hand

When I crush a wall, who'll help me stand

Some of my walls are thick and high

My love some reach to the sky ..............

And to breach them alone I just might die

©Dark

Dark Reigns

Dark Reigns

It’s one thing to not sleep

It’s one thing to be depressed

but to not sleep and be depressed

Can cause me such great distress

To roam the house from night to dawn

With dark thoughts that are not calm

And in the light of day when asked what is wrong

Your biggest fear is you’ll go off like a bomb

The mind is so convoluted

With dark twisting corridors so polluted

Behind every door you try to look for one brief moment of light

But lights go out, the wind blows cold, slamming the doors tight

Depression and sleeplessness may go hand in hand

It may rule the midnight land

But in the Dark the silent Dark

Insanity reigns

©Dark

I am a Tree

I am a Tree

I am a tree amongst the blackness

I have ghosts within my limbs

I am twisted bent and weeping

I am gnarled by men's sins

I am lost to light and laughter

I am ancient at my youth

Innocence never budding here

These branches stripped at birth

Never knowing love and care

No warmth within the dark despair

I've heard it said that light will shine

Darkness fades with love and time

years to come will bud new growth

Not of innocence but greeen with hope

Once the tree is warmed within--

Even love and trust may bloom again

©Dark